I remember when I held them in my arms for the first time. They were perfect. So small, so innocent. Kaelem was born in the summer, and Emberlynn was born in the fall. He was born fifteen months before her. It was love at first sight. The snuggle in my neck, the first time I held their hands in mine. So beautiful. It seemed like they’d never get here, and yet, there they were.
That first night spent with him was special. Rocking him in the chair, gazing at him as he was sleeping. Watching her look around the room and rest her eyes on mine. There’s nowhere else I’d rather be. It’s so sweet. There’s nothing that compares to welcoming our babies into the world. Nothing is better than sharing your life with them and watching them grow. The sleepless nights, tending to their every need; it’s worth every moment to be with them. Sure, it’s not easy, but I wouldn’t have it any other way. They need me. And I need them too. The first time you look into your baby’s eyes, you’re in love. They’ve got you hooked. Oh my goodness! Those smiles! Their precious little faces. It seems as though time stops at that moment. How can you stand it?
The Beauty of Life
Life is so beautiful. Such a gift. Feeling their breath on you as they lay on your chest, watching them breathe as they rest. It doesn’t last forever, but you wish it would. It’s peaceful, it’s calm, and it’s lovely. My life changed when my children were born. It was never going to be the same. New responsibilities were beginning to form, my life suddenly looked different, and plans changed for me.
It was no longer about my husband and me. In one single moment, life had more meaning, more purpose. I wasn’t interested in things I had been. I wanted more. I wanted to be part of whatever Kaelem and Emberlynn were going to be part of. I picture them in my future. Nothing else matters now. Just my husband and my little boy and girl. How can life be more perfect than this? They fill my heart so much!
This is what it’s like to have a baby. A miracle of a different kind! Oh, and that life! Oh my! It makes me so happy. Their first laugh! I wish I had it recorded. Oh, if every moment could be recorded! Their firsts are so memorable for me. They’ll probably forget, but I won’t. Their first word, “Dad” And “Papa.” I can’t forget our dog, “Bella.” Yes, they said every other name and word first, but I don’t care! I was there to experience it with them!
Nothing goes as planned with these two! I pictured Kaelem being potty trained by now, but he’s trying! He’s two and a half, but when he goes, he runs back to me and says, “ I did it, mommy! I went potty in the toilet!” He puts his pull-up on himself because he doesn’t need my help, he says, and then I adjust it for him. What a big boy!
Ember likes to follow me around and put lotion on her face when she sees me do it. She’s starting to pretend to put makeup on and loves to dance to every song she hears! She gives the sweetest hugs and kisses. She’s definitely my mini! Wherever I go, she has to follow, and when she hugs me, she never wants to let go!
Time is going by too fast! Couldn’t they be little for a while longer? I wish this, but at the same time, I can’t wait to experience more firsts with them. I can’t wait for them to make friends and start school! What will their interests be when they are another year older? What will he say and do? Will she play sports like I did or prefer reading and school to sports? Whatever they decide, I pray they know God, feel safe, learn at their pace, and know how much their father and I love them. I can see that things are already changing. They aren’t babies anymore. They run around and play together. They are doing so many things and imagining as they do them! I wonder what goes through their minds during the day.
Life is amazing. It’s such a gift. I can’t imagine what God thinks when He welcomes a new life into the world, and that life accepts Him into their heart! If it is more than what I have experienced, wow! I can’t wait to celebrate that with Him when I get to heaven. How glorious and wonderful!
(Luke 15:7) “I tell you that in the same way, there will be more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who need no repentance.”
I’ve experienced this much. I can’t wait to share more with Kaelem and Emberlynn. Thank you, Father God, for showing me a little of what You go through when You rejoice over a life. It’s indescribable. No words can express what it truly means to experience this!